Activities

Events that occur on a daily basis. Interactions that would be considered the norm and how they are able to shape our perception of the world and people. People come not only in all shapes and sizes but they are all unique in their own way. The impression we may have of a person also may determines how we may view race, religion and even ourselves. I will talk about something that has effected me and that has left a lasting effect on me.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Hate

Today, you called me around three saying how much you missed me.
I was annoyed and said I missed you more,
Then you went onto say how you wanted to see me and lets hang out and chill.......
I sighed inwardly and realized that I didn't want to see your face.
The past was like a shadow and I still was angry at what happened the day before.
I said yes when I meant NO........

Why couldn't I just have said what should have been said.......
Time heals all wounds I've been told and yet the scars remain.....
I know that the crumbs of yesterday are barely there,
the happiness is lacking in what we have and the love has changed into something I dont want............
Honestly, I don't want you in my life cause I know its the same for you...........
That pains me....... the glimpse that you gave me of love and yet the words that come from your mouth
Lack the conviction, that is obvious
The lack of respect and the nostalgic look you give over your shoulder.......
You promised bliss and a life of adventure .........
Yet you dont think twice when you curse me out,
not once thinking of the respect I might hold for you.....

I cry for myself not for "us" cause there is no "us" ......
We thought individually not together like we should have been.....
I had hoped that despite the gulf between us you would wade into the sea .....
And say "Baby no matter what I love you and will be there for you"......

I've seen hate,  family hold for another,
Race spitting at each other despite the fact that the boroughs embrace all........
Comments made on the street for no reason then to utter words that aren't necessary and cause pain....

So, I have to bend myself and despite my misgivings I say ........
I forgive you and will give you the time you need to grow .......
I don't want to destroy the images of romance that I cherish ....
Of the white knight that will slay the dragon and save me in my tower.....

In the ball of hate I find FORGIVENESS,
I hope to take this as a life lesson learned and taught well
by the master called karma and fate.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Education

Like a well of water...................
It flows continuously
Its bounty never ending.
The infinity that I most explore has not escaped me.......
Yet, I lack the patience and time to endure the fruits of its exploration.

I've had many distractions,
that many can relate to.
Love which is a bondage,
Family which contrives to make one live within a box.
Life which battles are trivial to some,
Difficult to others,
Yet passes like a breeze for all of us......

The sands of time wont stop for no one.
As you may well know,
What we make of it,
Speaks of the endurance that lies within......

To pursue the unattainable is the best that we can be,
For we know that the journey is never complete.......
To have pursued ones want and needs is the best that one can do by oneself.

I want to be remembered for the scholar that I am.
To be respected for being my own person,
To stand out, against the crowd,
Education has given me that,
Has filled my hunger,
for being recognized for who I am.
No regrets my friends for the knowledge I have obtained
has given me a thirst for the life tomorrow.