Activities

Events that occur on a daily basis. Interactions that would be considered the norm and how they are able to shape our perception of the world and people. People come not only in all shapes and sizes but they are all unique in their own way. The impression we may have of a person also may determines how we may view race, religion and even ourselves. I will talk about something that has effected me and that has left a lasting effect on me.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

PAIN

I wanted to see your face
for such a long time.........
In the process I have stopped eating
and feel like the well of my inspiration is drying
It will change into this dessert terrain
That nobody will recognize
That terrain causes a thirst,
A thirst of completion,
of the unknown but of a stable future
that can give me what nobody ever gave me.....
ACCEPTANCE....

This word defines who I am .......
An individual with a broken heart
that gave everything to her mom, her family, and then to you
REJECTED!

I always wonder was I at fault......
Being a woman and emotional creature that I am .......
I always lay the blame......my own two feet.....
I wonder what if ......

You wouldn't understand the turmoil inside.
The raging cyclone that smothers me and makes me explode.
Yet I still yearn for your face and wonder
WHAT IF......

If I changed this would you have accepted me?
or
If I changed that would you have desired me?

These questions are the tools of torture that I have prescribed myself.
I will always remember the way my emotions became the avalanche of rocks......
Who was crushed more?
Was it me? Or was it you?

I always have considered myself the phoenix..
Rising from the ashes no matter how many deaths......
Or a cat with claws, yet nine lives that she uses in order to fulfill her curiosity..
Hope is the only reason that I push myself to raise in the morning ......
To chase the clouds of my happiness and my dreams......
The rain has dampened me
Yet I dance in the rain and embrace the lightening .......
Someday you will understand the turmoil I faced ......
At the edge of a future with no view
But infinite promise.