Activities

Events that occur on a daily basis. Interactions that would be considered the norm and how they are able to shape our perception of the world and people. People come not only in all shapes and sizes but they are all unique in their own way. The impression we may have of a person also may determines how we may view race, religion and even ourselves. I will talk about something that has effected me and that has left a lasting effect on me.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Perception

We have six senses,
That god has given and yet we take for granted.
We hope to find some remarkable event
that would marks us forever.
Yet the little things in life
are highly ignored.


Like the breeze and the beautiful trees
Like running water and the lack of disease.
We thirst for something that hasn't been achieved.
We thirst for distinction and fame.
The little things in life are ignored.
That are ancestors revered and prayed for,
Prayed for the rain, for growth and fertility.

Pursuing materialistic things,
that don't last and begin to wear immediately.

People see us,
random strangers..........
Do they consider the goods that we horde
as an extension of who we are?
Do they ever consider the person within this shell
This outer shell which will one day turn into dust?
Our first perception of this world should include everything.
Not just the goods and the monetary aspirations.
But the smile we bring to someones face
when a memory sparks within their hearts.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Abuse

I've been verbally slaughtered by your tongue.
You have shred me to pieces about my dreams.
You despise me and yet you continue to succeed
in having a place in my dreams.

I should kick you to the curb.
You liar, cheater and flirt.
When you smile my heart still beats,
and I hear the lightest things like birds that make me weep.

I love and hate this disarray.
My heart is rejected by you,
but nevertheless I force myself to proceed.

My daily life pursuits don't mean a thing to you.
You are to busy flirting with others.
Putting me down and making me succumb to self destruction.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Volatility

Your love is so Volatile.......
It has to be a mistake..............
Filled with uncertainty and lots of haste................

You poke fun at my wisdom and laugh at my dreams.............
Yet we are in love so everything is precisely as it should be......
You cut me off when I talk............
Make me want to go mad.........

This love is so unhealthy,
Yet I cling to it like its water
or the rays of the sun that a plant most have.

My eyes are red today and my limbs are tired.
I feel like I ran a mile.
Yet the race is not over...........
Is the price worth the miles?

I am losing who I am,
I am losing my hearts desire,
I am losing my peace of mind because of this great sorrow.

My love is so destructive,
Its not worth the wait
or the race that I have found myself in..........

If you love me make me smile,
with joy and abundance.
We should laugh together..........
Make it feel like its worth the WAIT.............
I want to talk to you ...........
Spend time with you .....
Be the number one in your life......

I want you to fight for me............
Like I fought for you......
I want you to put my fears to rest.............
My fear of good-bye........
My fear of never seeing you again.

Can you do that?
Stop causing me pain !
I choose you for a reason.
Don't make this a mistake.
Don't make me the butt of jokes,
of being a FOOL in love with you.

Please understand my feelings for you
and stop making dumb mistakes!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Library

I went to the library the other day to get some books. I love to read paranormal fiction. I went and I found myself asking a simple question about a late fee charge. I was confused in regards to why the fee was charged since the system of the library was down. I asked the lady if the late fee was taken off of my account. Simple question. Right? The amount was like a dollar seventy five and I know the amount is really small but FAIRNESS should apply for every aspect of our lives!!!! So if I am NOT at fault why should I have to pay for it. Anyways, the woman bought her supervisor over and I tried to explain the situation. I was really calm. The lady took one look at my purse and looked me up and down. She gave me a look "are you kidding me!" Mind you I wasn't wearing a Coach bag but it was a name brand nevertheless. I tried to explain to her that I have no problem paying the money but why should I when I wasn't at fault. She didn't even hear me out she just had an overbearing manner which was by constantly interrupting me and then started verbally attacking me. She told me that I have an attitude problem and that "THE HUMAN MIND IS A FRAGILE THING" and she went on to say that some people may think and event occurred when it didn't. I was horrified and angry. My way of thinking that this is a public library and being a tax paying citizen I should NOT be treated like that. Like what happened to PROFESSIONALISM AND COURTESY. I understand that if you can SURVIVE New York you can deal with anything. The funny thing was that this women was like in her late forties maybe fifties and you would think she would know how how to deal with people. My point being we let little things slide in our lives that we think isn't a big deal. It starts with the little things and then gradually you let things slide of bigger significance. The lady from the library shouldn't have attacked me and in doing so she made it seem like she was doing me a favor. I called her out and told her straight forwardly that she shouldn't have made such remarks that were uncalled for and she just laughed at me. If you are miserable in your job don't take it out on other people just look at yourself first and understand where it is coming from. Lately, I've come across this kind of attitude in the borough libraries. It is very damaging considering they are suppose to encourage reading in the community and in children. People should be careful with the way they are portraying themselves. I really didn't want to go back after that and I have started buying books instead for I don't want ATTITUDES to destroy my zest of reading. Even though she has nothing to do with books the atmosphere itself can oppressive.

Dreams

Dreams are like bubbles,
They can pop any moment
without the least inclination.

Dreams aren't meant to be understood,
They motivate us,
inspire others,
to make an everlasting impression on the world.

Don't be afraid to be who you are,
being unique may be hard,
Trust me I know...........
But if you aren't truthful to yourself
then do not expect others to be truthful to you.

Constantly one complains of being misunderstood....
That may be so ....
but have you really shown your true self
and given yourself a chance?
For you are your biggest critic
and may bring yourself lower then others!

Courage isn't only in dangerous situations,
but rather in everyday pursuits
that we find ourselves in.

So never lose the courage to dream
of a better tomorrow,
of a new world,
of a more accepting society.

No one has the right to judge......
for perfection is unattainable
and being human is giving yourself room to explore,
and make mistakes.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Pheonix

I've been reborn,
from the ashes .........

I am free of societies restraints................
of following a time line
of doing things in haste...........

Yet I feel the yearning of being understood
of being loved and cherished
just like any normal human being would.

I've heard many tell me
I am ALONE, LONELY
Do you know that they are many that feel the same?
Your not alone in that feeling of isolation..........

I have meet people that idealize love
that are looking for that great emotion................
Truly, we just want somebody to care for us
To be mattered by someone as important.........

I have died numerous deaths,
my childhood's gone,
my innocence has vanished,
my search for love has ended,

I am reborn ........................
I am the pheonix.................

Thursday, January 14, 2010

HATE VS LOVE

I don't like people that abuse the word love. Love for me is really important and can be found in many places. Love usually brings into mind the love of a man and a woman but they are many types of love of which parents, siblings, friends and complete strangers display to one another. It could be a love of a cause, the love of knowledge, the love of

The NEw YEar

When I saw the movie 2012 I was horrified. I was like OMG I am going to die. You can imagine my terror on New Years Eve. I was like make it stop! STOP ! It felt more like doomsday then anything else. I even went on you tube and saw the theory based on the some Malaysian legend. Is there any factual reasoning behind this or is it just some Hollywood drama?

Love or Infatuation?

We all strive for love in life, or so it would seem. Every person has a different definition of it. I have found that love is Complicated. I laugh as I write this. The word Complicated amuses me. I want a special someone in my life that would understand me . It seems I am looking for a needle in a haystack. I have meet Boys of my age that aren't on the maturity level that I am. When I talk to my girl friends they say that I should look for someone older and established. That men my age tend to be two or three years behind mentally and it takes them a while to catch up! I thought I was looking for true love but as long as your attracted to somebody the rest it seems is trivial.